It has been that kind of day

That kind of week. First the computer bit the dust again. When that got mostly straightened out, the camper flooded, possibly sealing its fate. Then Roo hurt a leg. Again. Then a window on the car broke. Then the check engine light came on, which, though probably not anything serious, appeared with perfect comic timing). The only benefit has been some distraction from the national nightmare, which was drowned out by these lesser winds. 

The Kahoo’s leg is improving. I suppose she just whanged it again running around like a mad dog. And Roo being Roo, while I repaired the car under the awning of a pavilion at the campground, Roo preferred to lie down in the road, in the cold, cold rain, as if the sun was shining, providing yet another example of what a wonderful creature is the dog. I wouldn’t trade this one for the world.

Roo's version of the old arrow-through-the-head trick

If you’re going to play in the twiggy brambles…

If you’re going to play in the twiggy brambles…

The twiggy brambles will play in you.

The twiggy brambles will play in you.

Roo has been feeling better and better lately. Her legs and paws aren’t bothering her, she hasn’t been limping, and she’s back to hollowing trees out while mouses deep inside them wait for her to give up. With a good mood comes a lowered guard, and that’s when the twigs attack.

Ripe for a lynchin'


I snapped this photo on a walk with Rooki in Van Buren, Arkansas. Some Confederate up on a pedestal, a common sight in the South. I suppose with that hand shielding his eyes from the sun he’s meant to be lookin’ away to Dixie, but in reality he was probably just trying to figure out where the pet opossum who hated him ran off to.

I imagined how nice it would be to ride up on a horse, lasso the damn thing and bring it smashing down into a nice pile of rubble where rats could shelter from the rain and cold. Now that’d be a fair lynching. After the Civil War, those of the slave state rebels who weren’t ventilated by Union grapeshot were understood to be what they were — traitors. As far as monumentalization goes, most of them didn’t even merit gravestones. But once the North proceeded to make the irremediable error of not entirely subjugating the South, favoring a Reconstruction that empowered it instead to maintain all of its darkest traditions short of outright slaveholding, these monuments began to pop up as reminders of who was really in charge. Today, that man up there would be reading QAnon threads on Reddit, putting the word “Deplorable” in his Twitter handle and parroting every word Tucker Carlson told them to, ranting about liberal elites and witch hunts. What’s going on now was called the Alabamization of America.

May the North rise up again.

Home on the Range


This post is dedicated to Rebecca and Scoutie Shelor with all our love.

The drive from Maine to Oklahoma was grueling. Man, I hated to leave Maine, but the cold weather was blowing in and we had to try to beat it. The little camper just can’t handle it. Cold, wind and downpours hounded us all the way. One of the overnight stops was particularly brutal. The temperature only dropped to about 19 degrees, but the wind was blowing at 35 miles per hour and gusting to 55, buffeting the trailer and making it rock all night while we tried to sleep. It spooked Roo enough, and it was cold enough, that Roo actually slept up on the bed, which normally she only does in thunderstorms.

We barreled through, which, with the trailer dangling from the tail of the car amounted to about 500-600 miles a day. It was hard on Roo, and though she’s used to long drives now and understands when I tell her we have a drivey day ahead and she settles in to it, it’s no fun for her.

Those of you who remember Roo’s early days know that when she came from the shelter she was mistakenly estimated to be a three-year-old. Within a few weeks, though, it was clear that she was just a puppy. When the vet and I settled on a final estimate of eight months, it meant that she was probably born in November. She needed a birthday, and I didn’t, so I gave her mine, November 11th. That way, her birthday was 11/11/11, the only date to line up with six aces like that, and one that only repeats every century.

On the night of the 10th, Roo was looking so harried by the long drive that I took her to a state park in Tennessee so that she could have the birthday present of running around like a mad dog in the woods. It wasn’t much of a park, but at least she got to chase a few deer, try to dig up a few mice and go swimming in a lake.

From Tennessee we made the drive to east Oklahoma in one day and arrived late at night. I thought she would be happy to be back at this ranch, but she wasn’t. I don’t know why. I suppose she was just feeling too beat up. That, and the stresses of living in this cramped space on top of the 2000-mile drive. Either way, she was miserable.

Then she got sick again. Not very sick, but Roo has a sensitive stomach, and she prescribes the worst possible thing for it: she eats as much grass as an elephant. There might be something in the grass here that irritates her even more, because once she starts eating it, she can get sick for days. That means that I have to leash her, which is the last thing she wants.

Her dose of the allergy medicine Apoquel had been scaled back to one pill a day when it got colder in Maine and there weren’t any allergens that seemed to be bothering her. As soon as the normal two pill dosage came back on board, she began to feel better.

My original plan was to spend a week or so here and then press on to Arizona, but Roo needed her checkup and her vet, Dr. Stokes, one of the world’s truly great vets, was in Okinawa for Thanksgiving with his son who is in the military and wouldn’t be back for ten days. Stokes is worth waiting for, and so we did. It’s not hard to imagine how nervous Roo gets at the vet, but she’s okay with Stokes. She needed a blood test, to make sure the Rimadyl she takes for her arthritis isn’t damaging her liver, and with a field dog like Roo, I like her to get inspected anyway.

When we left Maine, Roo, who puts weight on as if you’re just throwing lard at her, was down to a pretty good fighting weight. She might have had a couple of extra pounds on her, but nothing dramatic. During the week it took to get to Oklahoma she started packing it on. By the time she got onto the scale at the vet’s, she was a gargantuan 83 pounds. This was terrible news and has resulted in a crash diet for her. She’s on half rations and spends much of the day giving me a seriously disappointed look that seems to extend beyond just my shortcomings. Her look seems to question the entire purpose of cruel humanity. But I have to weather it. That weight has to come off. She’s feeling all right, though. Her mood is improving and she’s back to wanting longer walks and enjoying herself again.

I don’t know what’s next for us or how long we’ll stay here.

Today’s Stray: Dumped at Walmart


Every time I find a stray dog it’s a punch in the gut. I can’t help letting them me remind me of all the lousy things humans do.

Roo hasn’t been feeling too well lately after a brutal drive through freezing, wet weather all the way from Maine to Oklahoma. I thought she would be happy to be here, but she wasn’t. There were a series of explosions in the distance around 6 in the morning after we arrived late at night, but she seemed oddly displeased to be here from the start. She didn’t want to walk, or swim. Her wounds have healed, so it didn’t look like those were bothering her, but who knows. There was gunfire, too, and after the quiet of Maine, where you never hear a gunshot, reviving the memory of them was probably too much for her. She needs to go to the vet anyway, but her vet, Dr. Stokes, is out of town until Monday, so we’re stuck at least until then, and probably longer, because we’re out of places to go, among other things.

Today, though, she finally perked up enough to go for more of a walk. She is slowing down — it was her seventh birthday on the 11th, so, maybe it’s just age. She enjoyed herself, but it kills me to see her run so much less than she did even two weeks ago. After her walk was when we went to Walmart. 

It was rush hour there, and a frantic dog was running around in the parking lot near the entrance. He was disoriented and frightened and clearly looking for someone. He ran to all the cars and hopped up to look in the windows as they rolled past him. 

“Get the hell off my truck!” one man yelled at him, as if the dog was a treat to his mismatched junkyard doors, probably replaced one at a time every time he ran into something when he was drunk on the way back from a strip bar in Fort Smith.

I kept trying to call him over, but he was panicking and wasn’t interested. You have to be careful not to chase a nervous dog, unless you want them to ran farther and faster, but I stalked him around for 15 or 20 minutes and as he got more used to me he started to come closer, but his main mission was trying to find his car, and eventually he disappeared.

I went in the store and asked someone to announce that a lost dog was running around the parking lot. Brown with an orange safety collar. The announcement sounded like a chicken squawking from inside a burlap bag and I asked them to do it again and maybe to speak a little more slowly and clearly. Back outside, there was no sign of the dog. I went back in and bought some noodles, a can of tuna, a loaf of bread, a couple of Kit Kats and a gallon of water — pretty much my diet these days, though Roo and I split the water — and went back outside. No sign of the wayfaring stranger.

Dispirited, I put the car in gear, and when Roo and I were pulling out, I drove another couple of rounds in the lot and spotted the dog again. He was more amped up than before and running faster. He knew he was in trouble. He was jumping up to look in the windows of parked cars not too far from where I was parked. I thought of getting Roo out as a lure, but decided against it. It was too busy in the lot and if I ever managed to get ahold of him it would have been hard to manage the two of them with him jumping around the way he was, and there was always the chance of a dog fight.

“Sorry, Chig,” I said when I opened the door. Roo had been watching me try to get to the dog and she saw no reason not to be included in the fun. “I know. There is a dog. But you have to wait here.” I took a couple of Roo’s Milk Bones for bait, gave her one, took out the leash I keep handy for strays and have had to use on more them than I can count, and got back to dog hunting.

The best thing would have been to get the dog into the farther end of the parking lot, which was empty. At least he couldn’t keep disappearing between the row of parked cars and maybe without being distracted by them I could get his attention. The plan worked slowly as he heard whistles and came closer before running back in an elliptical orbit. When he got close enough, I showed him a cookie. He stopped to consider it, but decided he had better things to do. 

A man with a little kid was getting into his Jeep, and the dog was attracted to them. The dog seemed to like little kids. That gave me the chance to move in and remind the dog about the cookie. He looked like he wouldn’t mind a snack, but he wasn’t sure he wanted to risk it. Finally, he got close enough for me to wave it past his nose, and he agreed to take it. Just when he did I raised it a few inches and said, “Can you sit for me?” And he did. 

“What a good boy,” I said, and he took the cookie gently. He stood to chew it, and I stayed in place to keep from spooking him and showed him another one and gently got a couple of fingers under his collar and while he was crunching that one and clipped the leash on.

This was not a dog accustomed to being on a leash and he bounced around like a madman. It was a good thing I didn’t take Roo. They would have gotten hopelessly tangled. 

Hoping that the dog was just an escapee whose owner had just left a window too far down, I waited outside the Walmart. I asked an employee to ask the manager to keep announcing a lost brown dog with an orange collar, and they did. No one showed up. Another Walmart worker came out and said he thought he had seen a minivan drive by and the door open and the dog pushed out and the minivan drive away.

“He got dumped?”

“Well, really I don’t know. I don’t really know if that’s what I saw or not. I think I did. But don’t quote me.” How often does someone say that to someone who actually will quote them? If he wanted the conversation on background, he should have said so in the first place.

“Well, try to picture it. Think back on what you saw.”

“Come to think of it, I don’t know. Really can’t say one way to the other.” He looked away in some direction. “I don’t know if I did or not. It might have been another dog. People dump ‘em here all the time. Could have been he was just running around and someone opened a door and it looked like he was dumped.”

The dog was a fine dog, and in good shape. He was young, healthy, clean and neutered. He was a mutt, though someone must have thought he was a boxer, because his tail was docked like one. Poor bastard. What the hell is the point of subjecting a dog to needless amputation? He was the owner of a collar — a cheap one, true, but safety orange, so, one that someone had chosen inconsideration of keeping him from getting caught in a crossfire — but no tags. He was starting to calm down, and though he still wanted to check every car coming and going, he was starting to show some of that old dog spirit, and he stopped trying to get away. He began to view me as an ally and stood beside me. I told him what a good dog he was and I meant it. He had a deep, soulful look to his eyes, though I have to admit I see that in the eyes of every dog. He was worried, but I could see that the words of encouragement meant something to him and I told him a few times. 

I asked the kid to ask the manager to come outside, and in a minute there he was. We talked about the dog’s future.

“I can’t take him,” I said, because I couldn’t. It is impossible in the tiny camper with Roo, who is upset by other dogs who come inside. And God only knows what she has hidden inside, bones and various possessions that another dog would sniff out in two seconds and lead to conflict. She barely tolerated the newborn puppy we found here last time. In her view the world is a dicey enough place without other dogs moving in on her. Even getting him to the camper would be problematic. The car is loaded to the gills, and I wasn’t going to risk packing Roo and this guy in there together in the passenger seat. Roo would almost certainly snarl at him to show him who’s boss, and though he seemed gentle and kind and well-mannered, in the agitated state he was already in, I wasn’t going to risk a bad ending. I’m sure the dog professionals might smirk at that, but that’s what I was thinking. 

The manager said he was friends with a cop and he could exert some influence to get them to open the local pound after hours and get him in there. 

“The downside,” he said, “is that they only have a five day hold over there. And then, well, you know.”

“Yeah. I know. I won’t let that happen.”

“He’ll be okay in there, then. Buy him some time. Maybe someone’ll claim him.”

I remembered the rescue who took a couple of other dogs I pulled off a nearby street, Three Girls Rescue. They work that pound, but I see from their facebook page that they’re always desperate to round up the fosters without whom dogs die in the pound, just as Roo was once about to die in a pound in Los Angeles. The whole thing stinks, from the people who take dogs on only to dump them in Walmart parking lots to the people who get dogs pregnant so their kids can witness the all too often goddamned miracle of birth to the shelters starved of money and all the rest of the human machinery dogs pay for with the lives.

But I’ll work with Three Girls and try to network something. The one thing I’ll never do is turn a dog in to get killed. So, if necessary, I’ll spring him myself, though I have no idea what I’ll do with him if I do. Move him in here, I suppose, though that would be a mess and I ain’t kiddin’, I’m out of steam.

The cop showed up in less than a minute. The dog, who had ben checking every car, was glad to get in this one. He jumped straight in the back, into the prisoner compartment behind the steel divider meant to protect the cops from the flailing meth heads who normally find themselves there, and that was the last I saw of him. I felt goddamn awful about it. I always do.

But there we are.

Elections have consequences — even for Bearface.

I took Roo for a walk in downtown Brunswick a few nights ago. We walked up one street, down another, turned on a cross street, walked up that one, over a block, and so on. It was cold and raining, so I was hoping Roo would hurry up and get down to it, but she seemed to be holding out for something.

As soon as she spotted the yard signs in the storefront window of the local Democratic Party, headquartered in a small house with a tidy garden on a side street, Roo pulled right over to poop. Right there. It was obviously premeditated. She was waiting for her chance. I’ve mentioned my suspicions of her being a Trump supporter before. By now I’m pretty sure, even if she’s never come out and said so directly.

I was reminded of the time before the 2016 election, when on the backroads of 46 states I saw a grand total of two Hillary yard signs and tens of thousands of Trump signs (especially in the darkest abyss of Trump worship, which was, and remains, Tennessee, the countryside of which was one colossal red tide of blue Trump signs), and anyone I mentioned it to said the same thing, that if you put up a Dem sign you’d get human excrement thrown at your house if you were lucky, but more likely just get your windows shot out by someone who would never face a minute in jail once he explained to the cops that it wasn’t his fault if his shotgun suddenly needed a good cleaning when he was driving past your house in his F-150 and the damn musket just happened to go off by accident. It could happen to anyone and would not qualify as a crime in any right-minded community.

Driving through the farm fields someone had decorated with 400 Trump signs, or the barns painted with that filthy word or the high-profit churches flying his banner, I could get pretty steamed up, but Roo never seemed to mind. And though I never meant to hold it against her, it’s hard to shake the idea of someone you love being a #MAGAt. If she had been human, I would have offered to drop her off at the nearest Trump rally and got lost on the way back to pick her up, but you can’t do that with a dog, because Trump hates dogs, because they hate him, and they are banned from his rallies. If he wasn’t as scared of them as he is, you can be sure he’d let them in and pen them up next to the press and lead chants against them, imprecating the crowd not just to lock them up, but to eat them for good measure, but Trump knows from long experience that most dogs are onto him and wouldn’t put up with it the way the press does. They’d charge the stage and tear him apart. That’s why you never see him risk getting anywhere near a dog. It’s also what makes Roo’s support of him as inexplicable as that of African-Americans or LGBTQ or Jews or Muslims who don the MAGA hat.

The next day, we were driving to a park to take her for her walk. There were stories about all the voter suppression going on on the radio, and those got me pretty steamed up. By contrast, Roo was in a terrific mood. She was more cheerful than she usually is at the chance she’s about to get to round up some illegal mouses. This was suspiciously like gloating. As soon as we got on the trail, she catapulted herself into a mud hole that she knows full well is strictly prohibited, because that mud you see on Roo? It’s not mud. It’s the duck equivalent of highly enriched uranium, the outflow of hundreds of ducks where it is deposited by a slow current at the shallow confluence of two small brooks. The clear water she is allowed to swim in was 50 feet away. She did this the same way all Trump supporters do things — against her own interest. She was the one who was going to have to suffer being hosed down with ice water, but she didn’t care. She did it to own the lib. It’s like voting to get yourself kicked off health insurance to make more money for the insurance companies. What’s a little cancer compared to owning the libs? What good is Social Security next to owning the libs over getting it pared down to four dollars a month?

All I can say is that if Election Day doesn’t turn the tide, she better watch out, because I just might become a lot less patient around any Trumpsters. If she doesn’t want her Social Security, maybe she’ll enjoy a little taste of what her life will be like without it once she turns 75 or 80 or whatever age they’re about to raise it to. Maybe she’ll get a little taste of what life will be like on one can of wet cat food a day, if that’s what she wants.

Elections have consequences, Bearface. See you Tuesday.

Worst mistake I ever made was teaching Roo how to vote in 2014. But, gee… I might have forgotten to mention anything about how to get an absentee ballot this year. I got mine, Junior. You don’t mind a little voter suppression, do you?

Worst mistake I ever made was teaching Roo how to vote in 2014. But, gee… I might have forgotten to mention anything about how to get an absentee ballot this year. I got mine, Junior. You don’t mind a little voter suppression, do you?

Roo entertains an escaped convict

Have you ever driven past a penitentiary and thought of the poor inmates, the sadness of their lives behind the barbed wire. Of course, some of them had it coming, but I can’t help feeling sorry for them, anyway. I think that’s what Roo was thinking when this little Labradoodle or whatever the poor guy was showed up. Tortured by a lifetime of living on the other side of invisible fence, facing being fried to a crisp for edging too close to the hiking trail where all the dogs run free on the other side of the line, he decided he’d had it. He made a break for it and took the electrocution at a flying jump, and when he hit the ground and found himself not only still among the living, but free at last, he could barely contain himself. It took him a few minutes to get Roo to play, but finally she acquiesced out of pity, knowing that when it was over, the old man would just hand the escapee to the proper authorities, just like all the others, which has always been fine with Roo, and which the old man did once again.